La-la-la Love it

How my friends keep coming up to me saying one of the following:
"So you should check... Oh wait, you're not on fb"

"Did you see that po... nevermind"

Friend: "OMG (insert friend name) is so annoying on fb. But I guess you wouldn't know" 
Me: "Yeah that's why I don't have one anymore. So I don't have to sit around and care about shit that doesn't affect me whatsoever."

It's amazing how much less & completely insignificant information I have since deactivating my account.
Get on that RL ("real life" -as my nerd friend Tom Ace would say) people!

Please Allow Myself,

To introduce... Myself

Hey there, remember me? I know it's been quite sometime since I've actually posted some thoughts, words and pictures of my own on here, but I'm not sorry... you bitches ain't nobody!!!!
Totes Kidding!!!  You guys (whoever you are, as in most likely ONE person) are awesome and I am very sorry because I know you can't live another day without my wise words to guide your life.... right down the drain.

Anyways, this year has already slapped me sideways and tossed me around like a one dollar hooker in Vegas, but I'm enjoying it. Guess I finally know what I want to do with my life now... So since my last sincere post was about New Years resolutions and getting this mess of a life together, I figured I'd update y'all on just a few of my goals and achievements:

1. Go to church EVERY Sunday - Not proud of myself on this one, it's been 4 or 5 weeks since my last church appearance.
2. Exercise at LEAST 4 times a week and eat healthy - another disappointment; this week I'm back on track after my birthday month celebration (don't judge, there's no reason you should celebrate your birthday for ONE day) and have taken it upon myself to deactivate my "social internet life" that way I can focus on my goal and not be distracted by all the fun everyone else will be having, while I'm just eating salads & sweating like a pig... I want to cry thinking about it, but I can cry when I'm a skinny bitch.
3. Get my financial stabilities together - This is one goal that I have accomplished and have been doing pretty good with. I even got myself a part time waitressing job that I start this weekend (raising the roof y'all) so I can finally have a shithole apartment to call my own. Fingers crossed that I don't get fired on day one! 
4. Limit my alcohol intake to special occasions - Like most of my other goals, I only lasted a good month and a half on this one. I have been drinking almost every weekend and family event since February and that's not good folks! So since I'm going to be in my own little world of full time work, exercise, part time work and sleep for the next couple months I'm not going to have time for any alcohol intake and that is fabulous. Oh yeah, and I didn't puke on my bday celebration night! Holler!
5. Read more books - Honestly, the last book I read was the booklet attached to the liquor bottle I was drinking out of... the shame
6. No Douchebags - Well, this one I've aced because I've managed to block out any and all men that approach me. I should probably start responding to them soon before I am told "I heard you were a lesbian now" again... yes AGAIN, I was told that by an old friend I ran into about a year ago. I should've maneaten his ass to let him know that I'm strictly dickly!

So, now you know my year has been fairly decent & eventful and is only getting better from here!! Blink 182 wasn't messin' around with that song Dammit lol
Hope you guys have done better in the New Year Resolution department than I have!! 

Exes & Oh's hoes!

Love GeeRae

I absolutely despise these people on fb

Yes, we're all "stalkers" to a certain extent on Facebook.
Yes, it's possible to stumble on anyone's page out of curiosity.
No, I (nor probably 90% of the rest of people on Facebook) don't give two shats about where you work. If you really "have stalkers" & wanted to keep it a secret, you can hide that information all together on your page which you already know cause you obviously hid everything else.

Please get over yourself.
Thanks,
-The World

No Matter How Far Wrong You've Gone, You Can Always Turn Around

So I came upon a friend's Facebook status that was quite inspirational to me and I felt the need to share it.

So today's lesson was this: I don't have to be happy with someone to help them. It is my responsibilty to help others. When I was driving home from my "errand" I wanted to cry - not because of anything bad but rather because I rememeber how many people helped me before I got sober (they didn't trust me) but they still helped me. So, is it not my responsibilty to pass that on to someone else? Of course it is. I am grateful to be sober and to have loving friends in my life and what I want these people to know is that there is Hope! That despite their best thinking and actions - there are people who care and who will help! I hope they get the message and I hope they get this deal. But today I get the message and I am willing!!! -K.W.

I have never struggled with a drug addiction myself or maybe you haven't, but I'm pretty sure we all know at least one person who is that is near to our hearts. I don't know what her "errand" was in this status, but this made me realize that we should never give up on those who are struggling with addictions. I personally know how it feels to be emotionally drained from someone who struggles with an addiction, and how you reach the point where you want to just give up on trying for them because you feel like they are not trying for themselves.
Don't do it, don't ever give up on them. It is our responsibility to love, support and believe in one another.

Over the last month, I've been through some experiences that made me realize we're only here for a certain amount of time. Use your time doing good for others and never stop believing that people cannot turn their lives around no matter how far they've gone down the wrong path.

Life can seem meaningless if we have no one to love us, so love those in need like there's no tomorrow.

PostSecret.com

Don't You Just Hate It When

You come across someone's Facebook profile and think to yourself, "Man we'd be awesome friends". But you can't just randomly request them, even if we have 61 mutual high school friends. That would be borderline creepy as if stalking them on Facebook wasn't creepy enough!! ugh.

Dear Guy Who Does Not Know He's Gay

Please just stop.

Here's a little story about how I came to know this fabulous creep.

G: Yo, who's this O guy you know?
A: K's friend. Why?
G: He requested me.
A: K used to date him. She said she knew she was his coverup. Does he know you?
G: I don't think so... I liked his comment on your Black Swan status and now he requested me.
A: He comments on my pictures and always hits on me but he's a total female about everything.
I always wondered if he was gay.
Dude one night he stayed up venting about how he wants love and crap, ew
G: Well does he have money? If so, then we can be friends
A: Yeah seems like he does
G: Wow, his pics do look gay
A: Yep
G: Hmmm I'll let that request simmer over night, maybe I'll want a new gay friend tomorrow morning.


...Weeks Later
A: You guys were right:
O's Facebook status: "if a guy has pierced tongue, he'll probably suck your..."
G: Does he have his tongue pierced?
A: Nooooope.
So he's definitely talking about a boytoy
G: Ha! Definitely.
G: I cannot get over how gay he is and when will he come out.
He HAS to be gay! He has the fuggin gayest tattoos ever, might as well have unicorns n shit


...Recently
A: I think I may have to delete O
G: What'd the gay creep do now?!
A: Picture comments and then he g-mailed me repeating his picture comments.
I just wanna be like ARE YOU GAY OR NOT!?!?
G: Do it, we'll be able to sleep at night.
It's not like he's your friend... Well, like, YOUR real off the internet friend, he's K's gay friend. 
A: His comments were like: DAMN GIRL, I WANNA MAKE THE SAME REQUEST, DAMN GIRL YOU ARE DANGEROUS, YOU ARE KILLING ME WITH THOSE CURVES. Fucking WEIRD
G: Dude just ask him.
I shouldn't have deleted him, then I'd be able to do it... Damnit.


....Moments ago
A: Okay I know this is gonna sound weird and unreal, but I think O's facebook statuses...I'm not even kidding... have been about ME.
Cause he tries to message me and I ignore and look at these:
*pastes ridiculous status updates that are clearly for a curvy woman whom he is obsessed with*
G: Dag. You should just get him down to his rainbow chonies and see if he'd really go thru with it.
He'll probably be like "EEWWEEEYYY I CAN'T DO THISSSSSS"
A: *pastes more crazy status updates*
G: I'm sure he's creeping on multiple women... and men with curves.
But yeah, you're def one of them

Cold Turkey Pt. 2

So you want to hear what awesome things happened while I boycotted Facebook for this last week?!?
Nothing...
I painted my nails a cool blue color.
Nothing.
People at work were told they aren't going to have a job in 2 weeks :(
....and more nothing.

Ok wait, that's kind of a lie. Something awesome did happen to me but not like what I was expecting. I didn't get promoted because I was way more productive, I didn't paint and organize my room like I need to and I didn't stumble upon a briefcase full of money because I wasn't looking down at my phone updates...
After my first day of serious withdrawals, I went into the kitchen in the morning for my cup of coffee as normal and found myself talking to an employee about hiking and then about his bad knee and some surgery he had on it, then about his kids. When I walked away, I started thinking about how many older people I work with (and not like, OLDER as in needing a walker, they're just older than me and in their 40's-50's) and how I really don't know much about any of them outside of work. I kinda just imagined these people to only exist at work, then they disappear off the face of the earth until 8am the next workday. And I mean that in the nicest way possible, now that I'm typing it out it seems a little harsh... I just forget that they also have their own lives and families and problems.

On a day to day basis, there's about 90 people here and I am close to about 10-12 of them, meaning I talk with them regularly and know a little about them & their personal lives. These are the people who do not disappear at 5pm because I've hung out with them outside of work so I know they're not imaginary (my imaginary friends are way more fun, but don't tell my coworkers I said that). So I decided with all of this extra time I've been having at work, I'd make it a point to start talking more to people who I normally don't talk to and asking more penetrating questions than the usual "How are you today?", "Is it Friday yet?", and "Have you seen my boss?". It's probably making some of them uncomfortable that I'm digging more into their personal lives, but most of them seem to enjoy talking about it cause I've been caught up in a few long conversations and they've even come up to my desk after to talk to me more. They like the penetration.

Without being so caught up on Fb I've learned that it's good idea to develop real relationships with the people I encounter almost everyday of my life instead of focusing all of my time on my Internet pals, especially since a group of people won't even be here in another two weeks. Maybe we're not like BFF status, but still it's nice to have someone else at work to talk with on a personal level. I guess all of my older coworkers are not these career focused zombies as I've imagined them to be.

Tia Gina

Day 3 of no Facebook: not too bad, I've only wanted to navigate there twice today. Yesterday was ridic, I almost quit on quitting!

Now back to my post.
Today I came across this super cute article about the founder of SavvyAunt.com who is a married woman and has decided her life is complete without children because she has enough nieces and nephews to fill that void of children. I was instantly intrigued in what this woman has to say because I don't have any children and I'm not interested in any at the moment because I also have plenty of nieces and nephews to borrow then return when I'm ready to go back to "me time". Although I can relate a lot about what the founder is going through not having or wanting children because she is an Aunt, I have to say that right now I'm not ready for kids but I'm not sure about not having children at all. I would love to have my own asshole children someday when I'm ready for it... Or at least married, because being single and not even dating anyone special at the moment doesn't seem like having a child would make my life anymore special.

I love it when people come to one of my family gatherings and are in complete shock of all the children running around then they turn to me and say "When are you going to have kids?". I swear my Sister has a 6th sense for when I get asked this question because without a second to waste she instantly yells "Never! She can take one of mine". My initial thought to this question is 'Does this family really need more children running around?' then 'I'm not even married you jackoff!' then 'Well I'm half way to 50 and it's clear that no one even wants to marry me, where's the fucking ice cream!?' and then I'm the one full of rage breaking the piñata. Ok that last part I made up, but you get the gist.

For the time being, my heart is complete with all of the blessings I call nieces & nephews. I love how they get excited to see me every time I come around -probably because they always tell me that I'm like a big kid 'cause I'm always willing to do goofy things with them. I also love it that they confide in me for things they aren't so sure in telling their parents about 'cause they don't want to get whooped and they know I'm going to let it slide. The best part of it all is that I can enjoy the company of children as long as I want then when I'm over it, I go back to my "world" of selfishness and negligence. I'm sure when it's my time to have children or if I ever do, I will be fine... as long as I can learn to not to refer to them as assholes. I've had oodles and oodles of experience with kids and I learned CPR off YouTube so we should be golden ;)

"Here's the truth about aunthood. Unlike parents, aunts have no legal obligations. Aunthood is a gift. It's a gift to the children who never suffer from too much love. It's a gift to today's overburdened parents who can always use more hands and hearts when it comes to their kids. And it's a gift to us because it is one of the wonderful things that fills our lives with joy, love and purpose." -Melanie Notkin

Cold Turkey

Facebook = Life Sucker

As I've stated before on my previous post of 8 Things That Annoy Me, Facebook is one of them. Sometimes I log in and it's like this crazy cool party with all my friends online (even though we never chat), 14 notifications, 2 new friend requests, a very funny thread happening on someone's status and some creep (who I don't know why is on my friends list) trying to hit me up on chat. Sometimes. Most of the time I get online and have 3 notifications which are usually of someone else commenting on a picture / status that I recently commented on that is completely irrelevant to me and that creep still trying to chat with me. Yet I still log on every day from work and my phone when I'm bored to just snoop around (which is pretty much border line stalking) on everyone else's posts aka life updates. Then I think 'Why the hell do I even log on to this, all your lives suck!!!' Just kidding. But seriously, all this time I am using to read about your lives, I could be doing something great with mine.

Since this realization of how much of my time that is somewhat wasted (and not the good wasted), I've decided that I'm going to stay off Facebook for ONE WHOLE WEEK starting today. I know you're thinking 'That's it? One week?'. But please keep in mind that my job has a lot of down time in which I'm allowed full access to the Internet, so yes, one week of no Facebook is going to be hard. Wish me luck on going cold turkey and don't get all booty on me if I don't respond to any of your notifications which I'm sure are all super important and life changing. If you have something that important to tell me, don't write it on my wall waiting for a response, call or text me foolnecks.

Hopefully during this week I get a few productive things accomplished or something really cool happens so I can update about it on my next log in cause I know you all only log in to read about my life!! Not. In the meantime, you will most likely be getting lots of strange blogs this week which will be like taking a tour inside the mind of Gina.

Ps. This is what I'm predicting will happen next week when I log in:

Via

Happy Monday!

Day Three

Day 3: Eight things that annoy you.

.1. The old lady who repeatedly calls my phone almost every other effing day then apologizes cause she has the wrong number. I even blocked her calls but she still leaves me a voicemail of nothing. GRRRR!!

.2. Those who choose to complain every chance they get about every single damn thing that happens to them because they think life should be perfect. Then as if listening to them isn't bad enough, they think your world should jolt to a stop too because "OMG their car battery died because their car is like so 5 years ago!!!!!" Shut the front door! You're lucky you even have a car!! It amazes me how ungrateful some people are for all the opportunities and luxuries we have in this country, yet they still want to complain about what they don't have. Shit happens, move forward!

.3. Sports fans of California teams. Enough said.

.4. Pop Radio. -unless I'm going out dancing, then it pumps me up so I can perfect all those moves I've been practicing in my mirror.

.5. People who have that gay ass "Not Cal" sticker on their vehicles. Really? You hate California so much you're going to put up a sticker on your car that still says Cal in it?? You showed them.

.6. Looking at my bank account on Monday morning.

.7. People who take one look at a person and make fun of them for anything and everything. Whether it's the clothes they're wearing, their weight, or their physical features. Grow up!

.8. Facebook... it's like that idiot guy I can't stay away from.

Acknowledgement

Have you ever been in public and recognized someone you personally know and who's even friended you on Facebook, see you and act like you don't exist?? What an asshole, right? How about if you've ever walked down the street and crossed paths with a random stranger and they instantly look away or down at their phone, because God forbid they have to look you in the eye and say Hello or just even smile at you? This is just ludicrous* people! (*Not to be confused with the rapper Ludacris, because he would probably shout something vulgar out at you like MOVE BITCH! GET OUT THE WAY! And you can't really be too upset about it cause he IS acknowledging you, right? No? Ok, moving on.)

I believe that besides Love, another feeling us human beings long for the most is acknowledgement. People like the sense of recognition. I recently had the above example happen to me where I was completely ignored and I was the least bit pleased about it. Here is how how it happened:

1. At small shindig of 12-14 people- Eye contact is made then He looks the other way without even throwing a smile at me and continues his conversation
2. Me thinking: "Wow, you're really that busy or too important to come up and say Hi to me or even smile at me when we're 10 feet away from each other? "
3. The night ends, no words are exchanged.
4. Next drunken night scrolling through Facebook updates- I come across his update: THIS muthaf*cker! DEFRIENDED!!
5. Next day of sobriety- Me: Was that childish of me???
   Trusted Adviser Ninja: Hell no! If he's so shady that he can't talk to you in real life, why the hell should you be friends on Facebook?!? 
   Me: Touche... Man I really gotta stop that drunk Facebooking.

I've actually been one of these assholes a few times and remember thinking "I don't have time or just don't want to say Hi to them cause I don't even know what to talk about". And to those people who've I completely ignored, I apologize and promise it will never happen again. I told myself from that day on, I'm going to make it a point to acknowledge everyone I know and even people I don't know. I can understand that there are times when two people who know each other are in a certain situation where it would just be difficult to sit there and converse with each other about the weather, sports, or whatever it is you manage to think of while trying to make conversation. Yes it can be awkward and utterly uncomfortable, but that person is a living human being with feelings and they deserve some sort of acknowledgement whether it be a smile or just a simple Hello. I don't know about you, but to me it feels good to receive a smile and a friendly Hello from a complete stranger.

So being a newbie to this whole blogging business, I chose this topic for my first post in hopes that my fellow interweb nerds who are strangers and people who I may know, will acknowledge me and love me and all my shenanigans that will be posted.

xoxo

Gina Rae